The Big Statement.

Okay, I'm going to take a moment and explain to you what recently prompted me to make a huge step in my recovery by removing someone from my facebook friends. In today's society, especially to my generation of the late 80s, it's as ultimate as it was in high school to completely cut someone. Bam, the ultimate statement.

It's also thanks to facebook for helping me realize how naive people can be. When you put your 'relationship status' to 'in a relationship' it's as though confirming that they are, indeed, a couple. When that pops up on a news feed from someone you had been leading a long and twisted road of flirtation, honesty, and deception, it cut deep. What the fuck about me let me get pulled into this inevitable lying game?

And yes, before you comment on my obvious cynicism, I'm well aware that my sex is as big, if not bigger liars and players of their own games. I'm not proud, nor am I like the rest. Honesty is my policy, if I didn't have it, I would have nothing.

It's after the games that you remember the rules. Unfortunately for me it made me oblivious to lying when faced with a pretty face. He had the most beautiful smi-. ANYWAY, my confrontation led to apologies, non heart felt words on a screen, as though it would fix it all. First came the phone number deletion, not a big deal to me for some reason.

It was a meaningful moment for me when I decided to remove this person from my facebook friends. Because everyone is friends with anyone on facebook because it's facebook, something we claim isn't serious but we all adhere to facebook rules.

I'm using that statement to move forward. I don't have to worry about seeing his name on my news feed since we all check it daily and I only have to talk to him if I run into him once in a blue moon. Something I believe I can handle.

I encourage you to take the time to remove all contact to a person if you can't stand hating them or still loving them. Help yourself because God knows no one else will.